Book List -- off the shelf of a fire lookout

[this appears to be a book list of all the books I had on the shelf up there, including stuff I'd read before and brought up to think with. I can definitely pick out a large section of the list as being books I read for the first time up in the tower]

Psychology/Cognitive Science, etc:

Bly, Robert; Iron John
A Little Book on the Human Shadow

Pearson, Carol; The Hero Within: Six Archetypes We Live By

Maslow, Abraham; Religions, Values & Peak Experiences
Toward a Psychology of Being

Jung, Carl G.; Memories, Dreams, Reflections
Septem Sermones Ad Mortuos

Sinetar, Marsha; Ordinary People as Monks & Mystics

Fritz, Robert; The Path of Least Resistance

Dennet, Daniel C.; The Mind's I: Reflections and Fantasies on Self and Soul

Buscalia, Leo; Personhood

Mindell, Arnold; Riding the Horse Backwards, working with the dreaming body
Working on Yourself Alone

Harner, Michael; The Way of the Shaman

Highwater, Jamake; Primal Mind

Physics:

Zukaf, Gary; The Dancing Wu Li Masters

Capra, Fritjof; The Tao of Physics

Poetry:

Erdrich, Louise; Jacklight

Cummings, E.E.; 96 Poems

Budkowski, Charles; The Last of the Great Earth Poems

Barnard, Mary (trans.); Sappho

Mitchell, Stephen (trans.); The Selected Poetry of Ranier Maria Rilke

Bly, Robert (trans. editor); The Kabir Book
News of the Universe: Poems of Twofold Consciousness
Leaping Poetry

Rexroth, Kenneth (trans.); One Hundred Poems from the Chinese
Love and the Turning Year; One Hundred More Poems from the Chinese

Snyder, Gary; The Backcountry
Riprap and Cold Mountain Poems
Turtle Mountain
Myths & Texts

Rothemberg, Jerome (editor); Technicians of the Sacred -- Shaking the Pumpkin

Jeffers, Robinson; Selected Poems

Lorca, Federico Garcia; Selected Poems of Federico Garcia Lorca

Elliot, T.S.; The Wasteland and Other Poems

Ginsberg, Allen; Howl

Cardenal, Ernesto; Homage to the American Indian

Rich, Adrienne; Dream of a Common Language

Gibran, Kahil; The Prophet
The Forerunner

Literature, prose & essays:

McCarthy, Cormac; Suttree
Blood Meridian
The Orchard Keeper

Kingston, Maxine Hong; Woman Warrior; Memoirs of a Childhood Among Ghosts

Hemingway, Ernest; In Our Time

Eisley, Loren; The Immense Journey

Abbey, Edward; Desert Solitaire

Lopez, Barry Houston; Desert Notes
River Notes
Winter Count
Crossing Open Ground

Stafford, Kim; Having Everything Right

Hammill, Sam; A Poet's Work

Bowles, Paul; A Distant Episode

Calvino, Italo; Under a Jaguar Sun
Cosmicomix

Leopold, Aldo; A Sand County Almanac

Dillard, Annie; Pilgrim at Tinker Creek
Holy the Firm

Pound, Ezra; The ABC of Reading

Silko, Leslie Marmon; Ceremony

Hill, Ruth Bebe; Hanta Yo

Welch, James; Fool's Crow

Mombaday, N. Scott; House Made of Dawn

Erdrich, Loyise; Tracks

Schneebaum, Tobias; Keep the River on your Right

Barry, Wendell; What are People For?

Paz, Octavio; On Poets and Others

Goldberg, Natalie; Writing Down the Bones
Wild Mind, Living the Writer's Life

Hesse, Herman; Siddhartha
Narziss & Goldmund

Potok, Chaim; My Name is Asher Lev

Chatwin, Bruce; The Songlines

Cocteau, Jean; Les Infants Terrible

Burroughs, William S.; Nova Express
Interzone

Miller, Harry; Sexus

Borges, Jose Louise; Labyrinthes

Mythology/Comparative Religion:

Radin, Paul; The Trickster

Han, Thict Nat; Being Peace

Campbell, Joseph; The Hero with a Thousand Faces
Myths to Live By

Tedlock, Dennis (trans.); The Popul Vuh

Arguelles, Jose; The Mayan Factor
Earth Ascending; and illustrated treatise on the governing of whole systems

Native American Interest (what wasn't scattered in other categories):

Neihart; Black Elk Speaks

Erdoes, Richard; Lame Deer; Seeker of Visions

Castaneda, Carlos; The Teachings of Don Juan; A Yaqui Way of Knowledge
Journey to Ixtlan

Storm, Hyemeyohsts; Seven Arrows
Way of the Heyokah

Mails, Thomas; Fool's Crow; Wisdom & Power

Foster, Steven &
Little, Meredith; The Book of the Vision Quest
The Roaring of the Sacred River

Sun Bear; The Path of Power
Earth Astrology

Boyd, Doug; Rolling Thunder

Metaphysics:

Twitchell, Paul; Tiger's Fang

Bailey, Alice H.; Initiations, Human & Solar
Consciousness of the Atom
Ponder on This

Two Disciples; The Rainbow Bridge II, link with the soul

Keyes, Ken; Starseed; The third Millineum
Return of the Bird Tribes

Alli, Antero; Angel Tech: A Modern Shaman's guide to Reality Selection

Hyatt, Christopher; A Modern Shaman's Guide to a pregnant universe

Millman, Dan; Way of the Peaceful Warrior
The Sacred Path of the Peaceful Warrior

Purse, Jill; The Mystic Spiral

New "Want List"

New "Want List":

Rexroth, Lopez, McCarthy, Eliade, Ovid, Shakespeare, Snyder, Huxley, Calvino, Blake, Novalis, Pound, Marquez, Paz, Hammil, Lorca, Everson, Faulkner, Jimenez, Machado, Vallejo, neruda, Blas de Otero, Boehme, Stevens (Wallace), Lawrence (DH); Walking on Alligators (on writing), Passion of the Western Mind Richard Tarnas;

Most, used copies. Rexroth, Snyder, Paz, Hammil, Lorca -- for essays first, as well as poetry (prose) etc.

New, positive: McCarthy. New, possible, Everson (Naked Poetry, new release)[couldn't find this book when I transcribed this post or I would link it for you]

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Switch to scene in a private library -- "only about 50% of those are read, don't bee too impressed." The man is quietly proud of their interest. The book that reminded him, was Marguerite Yourcenar's Memoirs of Hadrian -- gleaned from a "free box" in the basement of a housing co-op in Berkeley, CA in the 90's.

July 18th, Garden of Forking Paths, Quantum Physics, notes on Book ideas

I'm reading The Garden of Forking Paths -- and realized that it was published 5 years after the Many Worlds Interpretation of Quantum Mechanics -- 1957 -- published '62 -- It's Borges's musings on this, I'm sure of it.

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Ideas for Lookout Notes book:

Zeroxed -- linen paper outside -- stapled. Cover, a photo of Hickman zeroxed onto cover -- tape showing that held it on. Maybe a photo of me on back cover.

Intro: this book is created from excerpts of correspondence, journal entries, & "legitimate" writings put down while I stayed in a Fire Lookout Tower in the Mt. Hood National Forest. I've limited myself to very little editing after-the-fact, I.E. after I left the tower. Thus, the flavor of the pieces were maintained -- and the roughness. Enjoy.

Sign & number them.

Introduction --
Place --
Miasma --
(fantasia, catharsis, revelation)

Excerpts from radio messages -- definitions out of books (watch copyrights), incoming correspondence.

Send one to Snyder & Whalen.

"Dedicated to Gary Snyder -- whose work has never failed to give me hope -- both in the human race, and the artistic process.

And to my friend Ross Christian, without whose example I would not be writing today.

Blessing: May this book give permission to a flood of publications waiting to happen within the talent group of friends, so far unpublished, who are like a crowd at a banquet, plates at the ready -- waiting for someone to scoop the first serving."

Things to work on: format develop & allow for an intense amount of flexibility -- maybe prose - verse, adjunct prose; maybe chapter intros & maybe no explanation whatsoever -- maybe chronological order -- maybe titled chapters -- maybe not.

"The format developed organically, it isn't chronological -- or sequential -- it follows flows that occurred over the 4 months there. It's natural."

July ?, 1:21 AM -- frozen corn, horror films, lack of someone to woo, Dreads and plaster

Can't sleep. Got a bowl of frozen corn to munch on, and took a look at the moon through the windows. 5/8 full. My calendar is way the fuck off then, it shows 1/2 moon, waxing, on the 12th. The way its going, it'll be full in a day or two -- unless it was full a couple days ago.

Outside, it's got a pale, ghostly demeanor. The butte looks like a moor (again) -- once they'd have a poor, busy 1950's teen stumbling about in scared -- her ponytail all in a whirl. What a sadistic crowd we were (are). Wanna see kids chopped up for having sex. Every scene you see the soft-porn aspect of a teen slash-em-up movie -- you know the kids are doomed any second. The ultimate production of a crazed society formed on the protestant work ethic. "Fuck -- and you die, kids, -- gimme your money, thanks."

So I'm sittin here (on the Group W bench -- I mean I'm sittin here -- ), munching on frozen corn niblets, in the mood to write a corny love letter, but have no recipient in my life for such a letter.

Reminds me of the new, hippie chauvinistic I ran into a while back talking to some trail crew, or wildlife biologists -- "you aughta find yourself a kind little Betty to take up into that tower with you." "yeah, a Little Betty; you mean woman, right?" [lyrics] "where dehumanizing the victim makes things easier, it's like breathing with a respirator (Disposable Heroes of Hiphopracy)."

What was I saying? So, got no-one to write to. No one to woo.

I'll just read a chapter of Wild Mind & write instead.

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Instead of that, I wrote G. Doten a letter, a writer who I met while working for an Irish stucco & plaster company in the bay area. He, a burgundy-haired, dreadlocked, Bostonian with a thick accent -- was their mudboy. Also their token drug-user. He writes shorts & scripts, etc. We should all be famous some day. He may be the first of my friends to rise up.